{Post-Partum Fitness Plans for Baby #2}

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Today being my due date with baby number two has me thinking about returning to regular running and losing those extra pounds.  Of course baby snuggles and soaking up the moments is most important, but this post isn’t about that.

Last time around losing the weight was important to me for several reasons.  Those reasons remain the same this time around.  While I do believe there are far more important things in life than worrying about weight and working out post-baby, the reality is sometimes these small things are the big things.

For obvious reasons, I can’t afford to buy a new wardrobe.  I like having options to wear and it feels good to put on those skinny jeans again and have them actually fit.   This is only part of the reason though.  If I’m being honest, I’m just much happier and more confident when I like the way I look.  Feeling like yourself gives you a confidence and positivity to your life and attitude that is hard to get from another source.

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Turkey Trot with my little guy at 7 months old.

Beyond fitting into my old clothes, returning to working out is essential to my well-being and mental health.  I become very anxious and irrational if I go very long without moving my body.  For the sake of my family and those around me, everyone involved wants me to exercise as soon as possible.  Being outdoors and running through all four seasons does something for my soul and peace of mind that I’ve never found anywhere else.  The satisfaction and sense of accomplishment I get from my running is unique and necessary for me to feel like a good version of myself.

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Finally, since becoming a mom I struggle to find or make time for myself.  As a mom someone always needs you.  Something always needs to be done.  Mom guilt is overwhelming.  I have extreme mom guilt if I ever leave my son even if it is to get groceries or run an errand that is benefitting him or our family.  I need to make time for myself a priority here or there for my own sanity and to be sure I’m not dividing my attention when I’m with him (and soon baby girl, too).  Exercise gives me that break and time to myself.

As for when my next big race is exactly, I’ve decided to leave that a bit unknown or undecided. However unlike me as this sounds, I’ve got some ideas about when and where I might like to cross off my next state, but I learned the hard way last time around that if there is one guarantee post-baby it is that your best intentions and plans can go out the window in a hurry.

Balancing motherhood with work responsibilities and training was so, so much more complex and challenging than I could have anticipated.  Rather than shell out hundreds of dollars in advance to up the ante so-to-speak in helping me remain committed to my goal, I’ve decided to save some cash up front and be real.  This might mean paying a higher registration price to wait a bit longer to register for a race to be sure I can actually commit to the race and travel.  Despite not committing financially to any races as of yet, that doesn’t mean I don’t have post-baby workout /fitness plans.  I do!   If that sort of thing interests you, keep reading.  If not, maybe skip this post.

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Running with baby #1!

During my last pregnancy I had no real post-baby workout plans established.  I had no idea how weak my abs and pelvic muscles would be.  Seriously no idea.  I had done no kegels or pelvic work during my pregnancy, but I thought I had maintained a moderately active lifestyle running a few days a week until 27 weeks and then walking and hiking up to my due date.  When I look back at my workouts though, I really didn’t maintain my fitness like I had planned or hoped to.  Life got busy, and I made some excuses, too.

Post-partum after baby #1 I felt amazing.  I couldn’t believe that I had just had a baby and felt so good.  I had felt worse after some of the marathons I’d ran.  Walking was a breeze.   The first couple of runs felt great.  Once the initial excitement of I’m-running-and-I-haven’t-done-this-in-months wore off though, I realized how weak I was and what a work in progress I was.  My determination was there, but my abs just were not.  I remember sitting in my living room, laying flat on my back (that felt weird), and trying to do something as simple as lift my feet and legs off the floor a few inches.  I could not do this.  No matter how hard I tried, it was just not possible.

My actual running felt great aside from this lower ab and pelvic issue/pain I had after most runs.  I was able to return to running pretty quick, but I was constantly worried about doing more damage than good.  You almost can’t stop a runner though.

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I spent a lot of time reading and researching about how to correct mild abductus rectis and regain ab and pelvic floor strength.  I was so frustrated and felt confused as to why no one told me about this.  Why are stabilizing and strengthening exercises not taught to post-partum moms right away?  Why are we not told to avoid certain ab exercises like crunches that can make it worse?  I spent so much time pre-labor and delivery worrying and researching how to cope with labor pains and the end status of my lady parts I hadn’t even known or thought to consider this.  What’s even more is I can’t imagine that many women actually walk away from delivery with strong abs and pelvic muscles.  All women could benefit from this being a part of post-natal care.

Some of the resources I used the last time are linked below.  Of course, I’m not a doctor so listen to your own body and talk to yours before trying any of these!  I will definitely be using these again this time around.  I also already asked my midwife about post-partum PT.  She said she will make the referral and that they refer people all of the time.  After having two children 18 months apart I know that my pelvic floor will be able to use some extra attention, and I want to make sure I’m prepared.

Six Exercises to Rebuild Your Core After Pregnancy

Pelvic Floor Safe Exercise App

You Don’t Know Squat

5 Alternatives to Kegel Exercises

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I also plan to do as much walking as I can immediately post-baby, but I know this will be really hard this time around since I live in Wisconsin and baby is due in October. I doubt we will be walking 100 miles together by the time she is five weeks old like I did with her big brother, but I guess I can hope for a warm, late fall.  I do have a treadmill that I didn’t have with big brother, so hopefully she can sleep next to me while I get some walk time in and enjoy some intelligent TV or Hallmark Christmas movies.  I’m such a sucker for these feel good movies.  Add in post-baby hormones and I will probably be a mess.

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After having my son, 21 Day Fix really helped me make healthy food choices and get in a great workout in 3o minutes last time around.  I plan to use this again after baby #2.  Going to yoga and barre classes once a week also helped me get out of the house and get stronger, too.  I’d love to include this in my post-partum return plan, but the reality is with my husband working full time (since it won’t be summer like last time) this may be difficult to impossible.

I also hope this time of year (late fall/winter) gives me a chance to put less pressure on myself to run long runs right away and really take the time to do the pelvic floor work that needs to be done.  I’d like to complete more strength training too, so I can build a strong foundation to really return to running in the spring with longer runs.  The pressure we put on ourselves though is hard to stop.

 After having my son, I also spent a lot of (unnecessary) time obsessing about how I would lose the weight.  Not so much during the first three months.  I was totally devoted to my little man and caught up in those new mom emotions and challenges.  After three months though I had expected breastfeeding and the running and walking I was doing to have taken care of those extra pounds.  I lost 22 pounds that first month and thought I was going to have no problem losing the rest.

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The reality was I had a long way to go.  The worst part was I was eating right (dairy-free for baby meant a pretty clean diet) and exercising along with breastfeeding, and I just was not seeing the results I’d expected.  These three things were I’m sure helpful in maintaining a steady weight loss, but the one thing that seemed to be required for my body to lose the weight was the one thing I didn’t have patience for-TIME!

Knowing all of these things from before will, I hope, better prepare me for the after the second time around and make other frustrated mommies realize they are not alone.  I wouldn’t say the after was a hard transition the first time, but I was caught off guard by the extent of my weakness and the time it took to lose the weight. Often we hear that breastfeeding is the key.  The reality is that it may not be the only thing necessary.

Every person is unique.  Everyone’s journey their own.  No comparison needed; just support and knowing that for most people a combination of healthy eating, exercise and time is what is needed to lose baby weight.  No luck.  No fancy gimmicks.  No easy tricks. Sorry!  Just hard work, commitment, determination and, again, TIME!

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Six months post-baby I was back at my pre-baby weight.  Nine months after I was down an extra couple of pounds and would very soon be pregnant again.

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After running a half marathon at 16 weeks.

This pregnancy I worked out a lot more as I really wanted a more fit pregnancy than the first time around.  I also ate better in part to limit the pounds I gained, but also largely due to my gestational diabetes diagnosis.  I’m very curious how running more and until 35 weeks will play into my overall fitness and return to running.  I know running more and longer into this pregnancy has played a big part in me gaining about ten pounds less this time around.  At my recent 39 week appointment I had gained 26 pounds.  I’m sure I have a bit to gain yet, but don’t think it’s possible to gain 11 pounds before she gets here.  Let’s hope not!


It should be added that this plan is all pending a delivery similar to the last one. I am very aware that if I have a more difficult delivery or a c-section for some reason that my plans will have to be adjusted.  A combination of eating healthy, exercising and taking care of myself will make my return to the fitness I love possible and the baby weight come off with time.  I hated hearing this last time around, but it really seemed to be true for me.

My biggest tip to new mama’s-to-be when it comes to returning to working out is to have a plan that includes a healthy diet and exercise you enjoy, but know that that plan might have to be adjusted.  So much of having a baby is out of your control. Be flexible with yourself.  Workout when you can and try not to stress when you can’t.  Think about what you put in your mouth.  Above all, enjoy those new little baby moments.  They grow sooo fast!

Now if I just follow my own advice.

What tips do you have for new moms?

Sarah

Bumpdate {24 Weeks}

Today I am 25 weeks and the photo below was taken yesterday.  So much for keeping up with these updates!  With the 4th of July holiday we were on the go and did not have time to take a bumpdate photo.  Oh, well!

Baby Girl,

We may have found a name for you!  Just like last time we casually came across a name without looking in a baby book that both your dad and I like.  It is way too early to say if it will be your name or not as lots could change, but we’ve started calling you it on a regular basis.  Of course your dad still calls you Mildred quite often, our nickname for you.  I do not use this name as I just can’t.  You are not a Mildred.  

This past week we bought your brother a baby doll to get ready for your arrival along with some big brother books.  He could not wait to get his doll out of the box and immediately gave her kisses.  It was so sweet.  We could be wrong, but we think he will be such a sweet big brother.

We can’t wait to give you kisses for real in a few months!

Love, 

Mom

Feeling: More like myself

Last Thursday marked 24 Weeks for baby girl and I.  The past few weeks I have been feeling much more like myself.  I have not been so emotional and have been getting my drive back to get stuff done full force.  This is so exciting for me.  I love being productive.

Cravings:  Cereal (Kellogg’s Special K with Red Berries and Chocolate Chex)

Weight Gain: At my 25 week appointment today I was up 15.75 total pounds.  This brought on a panic initially because that means I gained just over 8 pounds in the last month. Eeekkkk!! I did look back at my last pregnancy weight gain and this exact same month I gained 7.5 pounds and then my weight gain leveled off again until the end.  Here’s to hoping that’s the case this time, too.

Or maybe it had something to do with wearing jeans and long sleeves to this appointment compared to a sundress last time.  We will find out.  I try not to stress too much as I believe if you are eating right and exercising your body does what it needs when you are pregnant, but seeing an increase like I did is never easy.  I remain about 3 pounds lighter than my last pregnancy at this point even with the big jump this month.  A healthy baby girl is all that matters, but let’s be real.  We would all prefer a healthy child without unnecessary weight gain.

Symptoms:  I’m still feeling tired at the end of the day and I’m thinking this may be here to stay.  New with this bumpdate are that lower back aches are becoming a regular along with some sciatic nerve pain.  Nightly heartburn after I go to bed showed up a week or two ago just like during my first pregnancy.

Exercise/Workouts:  I maintained my #rwrunstreak during the past few weeks logging the following miles during each week along with the following workouts: 

Week 22-Ran 10 miles (2.05, 3, 1.1, 1.2, 2.64) Both of my missed runs during my #rwrunstreak from Memorial Day to the Fourth of July were during this week.  It was a tough week.



 Week 23-Ran 12.8 miles (1, 1, 1.07, 2.04, 1.5, 5, 1.2), 1 strength training session, 1 short hike (.8 miles) and 1 hour outdoor yoga class.

Looking Forward To:

 Getting baby girl’s room complete (same as last time).  I purchased most of the items we are going to be putting in her room.  Now it is time to tape, paint and decorate.  Hopefully we will have some time to get to this soon.

Sarah

 

{A Start}


Last week was a start. I finally felt more in a routine with getting workouts in. It wasn’t perfect. It wasn’t anywhere near the 30-50 miles a week I used to run. I think those days are over for a while. Improvement is a success right now. Consistency the goal. Starting my mission.

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Monday-3 mile run with my boys.

Tuesday-3 mile run

Thursday-4 mile run

Saturday-Barre Class and Down Syndrome Awareness Walk


Sunday-4 mile walk

It was great to start a week with a run with my boys. It was rewarding to start a run when I didn’t want to in the evening and feel so glad and rejuvenated after I did. It was an accomplished feeling to start my Saturday morning out at barre class even though I could have slept in. All of these positive feelings began with starting.

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Starting over, new, fresh, again, whatever you want to call it can be scary. But, not starting really seems so much more frightening. By having all those positive starts last week, it also inspired me to start something else that was so important to me before having a baby-running races. In the spirit of starting again, the husband and I registered for a half marathon last week. It is time to start running races again. Distance races.

I’d like to say training will be starting, but it is in less than three weeks. We will scrap together whatever we can to show up at that starting line on October 3rd. It will hurt and be great at the same time in a love-hate way only running can offer.

Of course all those exciting and nervous emotions have started to pop up and will only intensify in the days leading up to the race. I can’t wait!

On the food front I had another good week of mostly clean eating. If you don’t count the Oreo binge I found myself in after the husband brought Oreos home that is. Damn you, Oreos.  What’s a dairy-free momma to do when she finds herself actually able to eat a sweet treat because it doesn’t have dairy for the first time in a long time. People talk about self-control. I used to have some.

Yummy New Recipes We’ve Tried Recently:

BBQ Chicken (we had ours with roasted potatoes and broccoli) (NOT 21 day fixed approved because we used store-bought bbq sauce)
Cilantro Lime Chicken (we eat ours on corn tortillas)
Peanut Butter Banana Oatmeal (I added chia/flax seeds for some extra omega 3’s)
Vegetable Egg Cups-Super easy and yummy to reheat.

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Well, as much as she (I) can!

Start something new this week for you.  Start something your future self will be proud of.  GO!

Sarah

{Run the Mile You Are In}

Last week a coworker told me the whole mom juggling act will never get easier, but you will get used to it.  I’m seeing what she meant already.  Yesterday I teared up while pumping at work because I missed my little guy so much.  Twice.


At the same time we are starting to all get a routine down of getting out the door, getting as much done at school as I can (with only half a prep and approximately 8 minutes of lunch after pumping this is hard) while also not getting home too late.  When your kid goes to bed at 6:30 and two hours is all you see him most days every minute counts.  EVERY MINUTE!!

Every minute means working out is still not more important than snuggles where you savor that baby soft skin and breathe in that baby smell so deep trying to permanently lock it in your memory.  It’s not more important than giggles over my best pig snort or bedtime stories about barnyard dances and pout-pout fish.  Of course not.

But working out is important because I’m more relaxed, calmer and better at the juggling act.  My world seems better and more positive like the photo below.  I can manage the chaos with a smile when I’ve worked out.

Last Week’s Workouts

Monday-Cardio Fix, 2.5 mile run, 2 mile walk

Wednesday- Lower Fix

Saturday-5 mile walk

Sunday-3 mile run

We tried several new recipes, but I will share those next week.  I’ve also done really well with eating again.  The saying abs are made in the kitchen must hold true.  I still believe in working out and eating right as the most effective way to lose or maintain weight, but I’ve lost another couple of pounds mostly by watching what I eat.  One more pound to go until I’m back to prebaby weight.  ONE MORE POUND.

Working out as a family can also be a way to spend time together a few nights a week.  Where we talk and coo about the world outside, make silly faces and sounds while we run and just enjoy each other.   

We are still working on balance.  We are running the mile we are in.  It turns out one of my favorite pieces of running advice also applies to life. Run the mile you are in.  The past couple of weeks I’ve let myself get caught up in how the miles before went and how many miles I have in front of me that I was forgetting to enjoy and appreciate the mile I’m in right now.  I was worrying about the miles in the future.

Some miles are hard and challenging, but you keep pushing because the next mile might be better.  Some miles are so effortless and blissful you almost forget your running.  Some miles you want to quit.  Some miles you decide to add on more miles. Some miles you reflect on the past while other miles you think to the future.  Right now we are simply running the mile we are in!

Sarah

{Working Mom Tries to Workout}

This blog title was originally Houston Marathon Training-Week #1 until there wasn’t a lot of training to speak of.  The past couple of weeks have been very challenging.  I feel so discouraged because working full time and breastfeeding/pumping and being a mom AND finding time and energy to workout is way harder than I thought it would be.  I made so much progress in August.  I lost 7.5 inches and 6 pounds by 21 Day Fixing and running.  I got to a point in my running where 7 miles felt easy again.  I could feel how much stronger I had gotten in barre class.  When I was home all day with little man it seemed easy (most days) to find 30 minutes to get in a fix and/or to run during a nap or go to a yoga or barre class while the husband was home. So, so much harder when working.

If you follow me on Instagram, then you probably noticed way fewer posts about working out and just in general.  This is usually a sign that life is way busy and probably not in a we-are-doing-so-many-fun-things way.  I seriously don’t know how other moms work, breastfeed, workout and have any time for anything else.  I have so much to learn!


Since going back to work two weeks ago (first week was inservice and getting ready for school) I’ve had little time to workout. My day is jam packed and by the time the baby is sleeping at night I’m so tired.  I was also single momming it Tuesday and Wednesday night this past week since the husband was gone.  Combine that with an early September heat wave and no air conditioning at my house (it has a bad leak and we opted not to replace our air conditioner this summer since we plan to next spring when we also replace the furnace) and you don’t have a lot of motivation and desire to workout.  We are regretting that air conditioner decision now!  Oh, and our dishwasher died, too.  By the way, I’m done complaining now.

Week #1-

Monday-60 minute walk and 60 minute Barre Class. (preheat wave obviously)

We love our Robeez!

Tuesday-nothing

Wednesday-I’m totally counting the National Guard Leadership Development obstacle/mission/team building stations we did at a nearby military base for four hours with my coworkers as my workout.  Our entire middle school staff was divided into teams and we completed ten stations before heading back to school.  Each obstacle required mental and physical effort.  I found some pictures of military soldiers doing the same stations we did (source).  We were obviously not in uniform, but we did have to wear helmets.  If you messed up on the water events, then you ended up wet!

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I was sore after this day from using new muscles and have a sweet battle wound bruise for my efforts (pictured a week later).

  This was a pretty cool way to start the school year, and I’m pretty sure no one will complain about meetings next year. It also reminded me of my complete lack of upper body strength and how much stronger my abs were a year ago!

Saturday-4 mile walk with P and the husband.  Quick 90 minute day date with the husband at a brewery for a late lunch.  Only our second date away from baby other than an overnight once.

Sunday-Does making copies and working on your classroom until 10:30 at night count as working out???  I didn’t want to miss family time so I headed to school after bedtime.

Week 2-

Monday-2.5 mile run and meal prep for the week.

Easiest training update ever when there isn’t much to say.  I’m realizing I’m going to have to get up earlier in the morning to workout (I HATE early morning workouts), but the thought of less sleep seems physically impossible right now.

Pierce still gets up three times at night.  We are working hard at trying to cut out the last night feeding, but with just going back to work I feel like if he’s waking up it’s because he needs to.  I literally see him for 2-2.5 hours a day before he goes to bed at night.  I’m hesitant to put any more on him with all the changes recently. And he’s now napping in his crib with a pacifier 75% of the time (sometimes without a sleep sack even).  Sweet Jesus, it’s a miracle.  This kid would not take a nuk for 4+months. We bought six different kinds and then one day he decides he’s going to do it!! He still won’t every day, but most days.

One thing I did stay on track with was my eating.  I meal prepped and ate clean for most of my meals over the past couple of weeks.  I did say most. I might have had some Wild Berry Skittles at school, enjoyed a day date meal, and we may have eaten Culvers one night, but I’m proud of 90% of my meals.  Now to avoid the candy corn and pumpkins!  They are my favorite.

With 3.5 pounds to go until I’m back to my pre-baby weight I’m determined to figure this whole juggling act out.  Tomorrow is a new day!

21 Day Fix Recipes I Loved The Past Weeks aka Yummy, Healthy Eats–>

Fruity Oatmeal Bake  I put extra fruit in mine.  So easy to reheat in the morning


Chicken Enchilada Soup (Husband made)

Hawaiian Pork Tenderloin This needed a little seasoning, but was good. (Husband made)

I still want to believe I can do this all.  Here’s to a fresh start tomorrow.

Sarah

{IMM Training-Week #7}

Monday-7.25 miles (counted as last weeks miles)

Week #7 Workouts-

Tuesday-4.75 mile walk with friend, 30 minute upper fix

Wednesday-3 mile run/walk (ran 2 miles, then P decided he would not remain in his car seat in the jogger.  Carried P and pushed stroller home), 30 minute lower fix

Thursday-2.5 mile run, 30 minute Pilates Fix

Friday-off

Saturday-5.5 mile run, 4.5 mile walk with daddy and P.

He just loves to look around.  If he can see, he is happy.  I see I missed some toe jams.  🙂

Sunday-7.3 mile run, 30 minute Yoga Fix (Lots of thoughts and emotions on the run today.  It gets lengthy below.) 

It was a perfect day for a run…except I really wasn’t feeling like going.  P got up 5 times during the night.  I was exhausted.  I had things to do around the house and back to school is near.  Not one to make a ton of excuses or back out on a goal, I set out for my Sunday long run (12 miles) that was scheduled on my training plan.

Along the way I felt the familiar tweak of a muscle that gets painfully sore from time to time since training for my first marathon nearly eight years ago.  Earlier this week I wasn’t sure I’d make it more than a mile into one of my runs.  Some stretching and easy running and it nearly went away.

I’m loving running and working out, but am feeling the challenges of being on someone else’s schedule and balancing all the new mommy tasks. I can’t just run when I feel like it or move a run the way I could in the past if something comes up.  I’m feeling the exhaustion of a baby who has been getting up 3-5 times a night for the past three weeks after getting used to only one feeding a night for the previous five weeks.  To make matters more difficult, when P stopped getting up only once per night, he has also stopped taking a bottle so well.  Day time bottles from dad are usually ok, night-time bottles he refuses.  Last night I got frustrated with P for being awake AGAIN and not letting his dad give him a bottle.  In my head I kept thinking I had a long run planned for the morning and he was making it so hard to get up and run.

And then I thought, who gets mad at their baby because they have a long run the next day?  I immediately felt guilty for thinking it, but the fact that I had remained.

According to the Wonder Weeks app he has been “storming” all month (love this app by the way) and will be for another 11 days.  I counted. He is definitely going through some major development as almost everyday he wakes up doing something new.  One morning he found his feet.  Another day he began sticking out his tongue.  He loves doing pull ups with his hanging toys.  He adores knocking toys off his exersaucer that before he just stared at.   He hates riding in his car seat if he can’t see the world around him.

As I got a few more miles in the familiar tired/weak feeling returned.  It seems to show up near mile five in a run in the morning.  I just can’t figure out my fueling with breastfeeding.  I headed out on a longer route so I couldn’t cheat any miles.  As I turned down a country road that would take me past one of my favorite trees, I started to ask myself why I was out there.  If I’m not loving what I’m doing, then why the push?  As my favorite tree came within sight, I stopped to stretch and think about why I was so eager to get back to marathoning.  When I was pregnant I promised myself not to put pressure on myself to return to running or run to a point that I was overwhelmed and feeling unbalanced after baby.  I have not been holding true to this. I’ve been putting lots of pressure on myself.

As I neared my favorite tree I thought about the logistical problems that recently arose with running this marathon in Indiana.  I registered before our school calendar was out.  We have inservice on Friday, so we are not allowed to take a personal day.  I would have to take an unpaid day in order to get to the Saturday race.  I’m ok with taking an unpaid day if it means a weekend of family fun.  P is, however, not riding or sitting in his infant seat well as of the last two weeks.  A two-hour ride took forever last weekend.  There is no way he can make the 7 hour drive there AND back in two days.  After putting him through a road trip to Boston, we don’t feel it is in his best interest to even attempt this drive, so I will have to run this marathon alone.

This presents another problem.  I fall asleep really easy when I drive and I’m tired.  There is no way I can drive myself 6-7 hours Friday, run a marathon Saturday and then drive the same distance back.  I know myself.  I will fall asleep.  My goal of running 50 marathons in 50 states was always about exploring a state while visiting for a marathon, which I guess wouldn’t happen either.  More importantly, I don’t want to be without my boys for that long.

My favorite tree…one of them.

I hate when people back out of commitments.  I never make goals and not follow through with them.  I’ve never signed up for a marathon and not ran it.  I was feeling so guilty at even entertaining the idea of not running this race.  I waffled back and forth for another mile beating myself up with my own thoughts.

As I made the turn towards town and home, I thought about how lately my heart, mind and body have not been so into this training.  The song changed on my iPhone to the Zac Brown Band-Loving You Easy.  I instantly smiled a big, dorky mom smile. I dance with Pierce to this song in the kitchen while I sing the words to him often and he smiles this biggest, heart melting smile each time I sing the chorus to him.  Running along I was flooded with emotion and tears glistened in my eyes.  I missed my baby.  I could feel his soft skin.  His little hand when it curls around my fingers when he nurses.  The delicious smell of his sweet baby smell.  His gummy grin.  The way his whole body smiles when I walk over to him, limbs waving with excitement.  All of this talk in my head on this run was not important.

The decision I’m waffling on is not worth the memories I might miss or the stress I’m putting on myself.  I want to run what I feel like on that particular day based on how many times I was up the night before, how Pierce’s day is going, or around other family time.  I just finished the 21 Day Fix today, and I really enjoyed doing the workouts, but combined with my training it is a lot.  I want to make time for parts of both, not do both.  A run here, a 30 minute fix there.  Balance.  I’m also loving my weekly yoga class that I missed twice since picking up training.

I always believe in honesty and hate how social media often makes life look so perfect and cookie cutter.  Life is messy.  My cookies never roll out perfect each time.  This is just another example of that.  So, I’m 95% I won’t be on the starting line of the Indianapolis Monumental Marathon like I planned and thought I wanted to be.  Instead I will aim for the Houston Marathon in January as my first marathon after baby.  I have my sights on a fall half marathon or two since this distance is much more manageable for me right now.

I don’t regret setting this lofty marathon goal only to change my mind.  It’s not a failure.  For the $50 I paid back in December I got my butt moving after having a baby.  I walked a lot so I’d be able to start easy running sooner so I could then start training for this race.  I credit this goal with getting me back out on the pavement and to yoga sooner than I would have without a goal. This helped me remember to give myself some time each day and got me outside with baby early on.

My marathon goal also helped me gain some much needed perspective.  I want to do it all.  I want to be a good mom, wife, friend, daughter, sister, runner, teacher, …and on and on.  But, we can’t be perfect at all of them all the time.  Focusing on what is important led me to realize that my goal to arrive at the starting line of my next marathon with balance in my life just isn’t possible right now as a new mommy.

Balance right now means not training for a marathon that will happen in just over two months.  Balance right now means not following an exact training plan and giving myself some flexibility with accountability. Balance right now means a run one day, yoga another, and coffee and serenading my sweet baby everyday.  Loving him is easy.  Making this decision wasn’t at first, but in the end I know I will enjoy this time even more without the pressure I’m putting on myself.  I will be a better mom to P.  A nicer wife.  And that’s what really matters…along with singing and dancing in your kitchen, which is exactly what we did as soon as I got home from my run.   

Cue the chorus!

Look to see a post each week as I continue running, 21 day fixing and working on balance with this whole new mom thing.

Sarah

And, in case you wondered…

     Weekly Miles Ran-17.3 miles not counting     Monday’s 7 miles

21 Day Fix Recipe(s) I Loved This Week aka Yummy, Healthy Eats!

This was so good.  I was skeptical since the flat-out is so thin, but it was delicious.  Minus the vegan cheese-Think Kraft     singles, but so, so much worse.

Flat-Out Pizza 

{IMM Training-Week #6}

Week #6 Workouts-

Tuesday-30 Minute Upper Fix


Wednesday-3.25 mile run (really excited about my pace for this run), 3.25 mile walk, 30 minute Lower Fix

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He does nap well most day!

Thursday-15 minutes of Pilates Fix.  My sweet boy did not nap well.  Then we had a pool day playdate planned.  Mommy had no workout time!

Friday-30 minute Cardio Fix and 3 mile run

Saturday-Consoling and comforting an upset baby who did not want to ride in the car.  Yes, this is a workout.

Sunday-Trying to get an over tired child to sleep.  Again, this is a workout.

Monday-7.23 mile run

C9 tank from Target is on clearance for $11.98 right NOW!

Week 6 Total-13.5 miles

If you follow me on on Instagram, then you noticed a post last night that alluded to a rough workout week.  I had been doing so well until Thursday.  Missing workouts had nothing to do with making excuses or lack of motivation.  Quite the opposite.  For the first time in a while I had been back on track.  Then life as a new mom sort of just hit.  A child that wouldn’t nap on Thursday.  An out-of-town wedding and a child that wouldn’t ride well in the car meant lots of stops to console and comfort and no workout time on Saturday.  A still over tired child from not napping well and getting up frequently at night over the past couple of weeks and more car riding back home meant no caffeine for mom until the afternoon, a nasty headache and again no time to workout.

We had a great time at the wedding. It was just the getting there and back part that was rough. And to think this kid made it to Boston and back without much of an issue.

Monday I worked a full day at school and came home to cooler temperatures, a well rested boy, and a determination to run and get in a good workout like no other.  After the little man went to bed and had been out for a half hour I hit the pavement.  I stopped home for what I thought was a quick drink of water after 7.23 miles.  I had been feeling stronger than ever and was determined to reach my goal for that day of ten miles.  Except upon arriving home I saw a note on the front door rug.  Someone had been up and was upset.  I felt bad for not being there after being away all day.  My husband wanted a break.  My run was done.

And I’m learning to be ok with this.  My goal was to arrive at the starting line of my next marathon with balance.  Working out everyday is not something that is likely to happen for me.  Finding 30 minutes in my day for 21 day fix has been easier than I thought it would be, but somedays it just may not happen.  I’m learning not to beat myself up about missed runs or workouts. By cross training for the first time ever, I feel stronger on my runs and am hoping this compensates for some missed miles.  I would rather miss a workout here or there than feel the mom guilt of not being there for my son.  Too much time being mommy and not enough working out isn’t good either as I get more impatient and worked up with my son.  Balance.  Learning to practice what I preach.


Earlier in the week before our stormy time with baby I had some time to find the below 21 Day Fix Finds and we made Ziti.  See below for these helpful tools and a new recipe, too.

21 Day Fix Finds-

I’m all about pretty documents to stay organized and prepared.  I didn’t make these, but found them on Pinterest.  Why reinvent the wheel?
Measurement Tracker-It’s all about data! I only did my measurements at the beginning, middle and will at the end. Weight I’m looking at every 7 days.
Container Cheat Sheet -This is on on my refrigerator right now!
Meal Tracker-If you want to be so detailed. I often meal planned in the past so I might use this if I find the time. Could be helpful for others.

Recipes-
Baked Ziti add zucchini to get in some extra veggies.
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This week is the last week of my first round of 21 day fix and it has to be better will be better than last week workout wise.

Stay positive.  Keep working on balance.  We can do this!

Sarah