36 weeks kind of has me like whoa! How is it possible that you could really arrive at any time now? This whole big scary adventure that we’ve been envisioning is really about to start. I feel so not ready, but yet so ready. With your brother being sick so much, and what feels like everything else going wrong and things continually popping up on our calendar, I can’t imagine having another small person in the house to care for. I was really freaking out this week.
Luckily, I had some contractions that woke me up to reality and made me think I need to get real here. I need to start mentally preparing myself for labor and your arrival if I want to welcome you into a prepared and calm environment. It got me to read some birth stories and really focus in on what was important. It made me remember how I can’t wait to meet you and snuggle you on my chest. It reminded me how amazing forming that breastfeeding relationship can be. It focused me in on how I can’t wait to see you and your brother become friends as you grow older.
All this mental focus and prioritizing has been so helpful for me to remember that this is truly one of the most exciting times in our lives. You don’t get to welcome baby #2 again. Finding water in our basement after all this rain and having to tear up the flooring in our finished basement this weekend still threw me for a bit of a freak out.
You seem to be the blessing that brings my focus back to life’s important things. I love that about you.
Feeling: Nervous about your arrival, but more mentally prepared for the work of labor, delivery and keeping a newborn alive.
I know I can do this. It will be hard. I will freak out at times. Baby girl has a good daddy and a wonderful brother. She will be so worth the work.
Cravings: Chocolate and Sweets still! My 1/2 cup serving of frozen yogurt is happening quite a few times a week now. Blood sugars are still great.
Weight Gain: At my last appointment at 36 weeks on the dot I had gained 22.3 pounds. I had lost an ounce since my last appointment. I was concerned since I’ve really only gained back the weight I lost since 29 weeks and now weigh actually just below the amount I did at my 29 week appointment. The dietician had also mentioned my lack of weight gain at my last appointment, which I did point out to her that I had gained some weight, but after losing a few pounds it didn’t look like it. When I spoke with my midwife about not really gaining weight in the past weeks, she said I had gained at a steady rate during the second trimester so she was not concerned. My uterus is measuring on for my 36 weeks, too so baby is growing even if I’m not gaining weight.
Symptoms: Feeling good early in the day and much more tired as the day goes on and in the evening. No new symptoms! Just exhausted at times, uncomfortable at times and feeling good at other times.
Workouts/Running: I have been walking and got in a great run. I still am fitting it in when I can rather than making any regular routine work.
Ran-2.5 miles (I felt amazing on this run. Wish I could find a way to make more running work right now.)
I don’t have time to share the links this week. Nothing special with these, but I will add in links later.
Homemade Mac n’Cheese
Slow Cooker Roast
Looking Forward To: I’m going to be honest. I’m wavering back and forth between looking forward to not being pregnant anymore and trying to enjoy every last kick she gives. You never know if this is the last baby or not.